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The first time we born into this world, we don’t have anything in our memories. It’s just like a book with white blank pages inside.

How old are you now?

What memories do you have until now?

In real life, we can always erase the unwanted part of the book, but also in real life no matter how hard we try it’s impossible to erase unwanted memories.

If that happen, then what should we do?
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All you need is to be happy, and you can’t get that by bowing down to someone nor by giving flowers to someone you like.
Because the happiness we talk about is not that kind of (happiness)..
Worldly happiness, that’s how I called it.. even though the feeling seems so real, it will eventually wilt, because time will take it all and give something new only for it to be taken again.
This is what we called ‘change‘.

‘Change’ is inevitable,
that’s why…

-The real happiness is not the exact opposite of suffering.-

To see the real one, you can’t wear any kind of glasses that will manipulate your sight.

Some people surrounded by problems thus looking for a way out, but they seems unable to find a way out.
Why?
Because their mind has already set boundaries that should not be crossed under any circumstances.
They are trapped in their self-made prison.
They live behind the bar and doesn’t even realize that the bar isn’t really exist.
…
…

You must set your vision further in order to understand how things works.
Fail to do so, you will just live in ordinary life, vulnerable to suffering and sorrow of the world.

What’s future?
Future is not really exist, so it’s not all wrong if someone suddenly said that you have no future.
Future is imagination. It’s not happen yet. The only real thing is this present.
But well, sometimes we lived up to our imagination about the future more than we try to appreciate the present moment.
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Wierd topic to talk about, eh.?
Before you make any objection please read this article until the end and give me some of your opinion.
The title seems so pathetic, right?
But the cover isn’t always represent what’s inside. You can’t take impression on what someone wear to decide he/she is a good or bad person (although actually you tend to do so. LoL)
You also can’t decide whether the food is delicious only by looking at its appereance. And you can’t judge me as pathetic only because I wrote a title that ‘seems’ pathetic.
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How can you let go of your past?

If it hurts, then just let it go, don’t ever think about it anymore.
Well, it’s much more easy to said than to be done.

How can you let go? The question is : you can’t or you aren’t willing to?
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New Update !

Tokyo Pop is closing down. Don’t send any of your artworks again. Below’s article is only for archiving purposes.

Got this email from tokyopop. I couldn’t found any webpage contain this info, so I decided to write it on my blog.

Hope all of you who have talent in drawing would send some of your artwork. I do know someone. He is great.
Hey…. do you hear me !! LoL
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rule no. 1 is not to underestimate anyone around you
rule no. 2 is to learn anytime anywhere with anyone anything while you can.
rule no. 3 is to avoid unproductive debate, no insulting, no harsh words, no bad intentions.

Being hurt… again
At first, I’m always hesitating. Why should I do something like this. This is stupid, I will only get hurt.But my other thoughts come. It said you can’t just reject everything. At least you should try. Pain is unevitable, but suffering is a choice (if not for today, it will for for future)
So, what did I got?
Pain.
I failed, and it made me feel unease.
I’m too tired to blame mistake on myself. I just feel pain, and then become emptiness – somehow I feel like I’m falling into the depth of misery.
I feel useless, unvaluable things that ever born in this world.I’m such a pessimistic.
I lost my focus, nearly trying to hate, but my other thoughts come again. It gave me advice not to blame anyone. They have nothing to do with all of this. And it made me to have no other choice to blame no one other than myself.

I can’t talk about my problem to anyone else, for they will only have a pity on me. I don’t want to worry anyone, or begging for their kindness. First reason is because I still have pride (one of the source of my difficulties).
Second reason is because I really don’t want to make them worry because of me and of course I know that the one who can help me is me, myself.

And then, in the middle of despair feeling, I found a little paper clip just in front of my eyes. You may not understand why just a paper clip would worth mentioned in here.
Before I made that decision, in which become the cause of my despairness, I’m trying to find this paper clip because I need it, but I can’t find it. I feel agitated..
But now, when what left is only an empty gaze, suddenly the paper clip showed up in front of my eyes.
I took it and I looked at it for a time being. Why can’t I find it that time?
I’m too confused that I missed it?

That brought me to realize that sometimes, we just need to take more attention to everything around us.
Sometimes what we need is not far away, sometimes it’s near. What we need is to pay more attention. Sometimes we don’t even have to try so hard, eventually we’ll find what we searching for.

I’m still contemplating.
But I can’t just forget everything else… Time to get back to work.
C ya.

How does it feel when your hope vanished in an instant?
Ask me and I’ll tell you.

It feel like shit. !

Yeah, you can tell that I’m exaggerated things, but in reality I feel like useless person.
And when things become complicated my only refuge is by meditating.

I don’t know whether I’m meditating just for the purpose to hide/runaway from reality or I really meditate for peace.

I don’t even see a slight difference of it.

Yes, maybe my mind is covered in dirt shit that I can’t clearly see what’s my real motivation.

No matter what, I’m brokenhearted.
Feels like I better die because I feel like I don’t have anything to cling on this world.
All the happiness and the joy that I feel last night, disappear without a single trace.

What the heck. !?
Sometimes I can easily give advice to people about how to live this life, but at other times, I can’t even handle my own problem properly.

I’m complaining but still can’t find any real solution.

It looks like I have to sort out my own problem, starting to think like I’m not the victim, just an observer.
After that, I have to see inside myself. What’s actually the source of the problem ?

It’s the expectation, wrong expectation, self-centered expectation that give a pain in my heart.

I should stop expect too much from the outside, and also from the inside.

The teacher once told me indirectly : true refuge is the trained mind. So, I think this is what I’ll do.
Remove all trash that stayed inside my mind. Learn to accept things. Learn to enjoy the flow. Learn to rest.

Yes. Resting is what I need right now. Leave all worries for the future me. Haha.

Great. !