There is no significant change happen in 2009 for me, since I feel the same. The old habits is repeated every year. Not only me… but almost everyone do the same thing as new year came by.
This is a small example…
It’s a big sale. New Year Sale…
Yeap, it happen every year near the end of previous year. People are very busy, making such noise in every corner of the plaza.
It’s normal since we all know that we’re now facing global recession and we have to take advantage of every saving chance that comes.
2009 is also same as the previous year,… if we won’t call it worst.
Self control again is an issue. I did realize that our mind state and our mood is much more influenced by external factor rather than internal factor.
We’re somehow connected with everyone and everything around us.
Our work partner, our family, our financial, etc…
You can see that every entity around us is having much influence on how we react at something, how we think, and how we feel when we’re facing certain circumstances.
We’re connected each other and our destiny, our pathway of life often go into wrong direction as we try to save ourselves or defend ourselves.
Life is about survival, right?… but sometimes we’re applying wrong method to survive… and we never know it !!!
Now, I’m living with full of insecure feeling.
I have a lot of worries, and I don’t know where I’m heading into. I hope that I’m not heading into the death valley.
When I write this post, the clock is at 00.00 – January 1, 2009
Happy New Year, everybody !!!
Time flew so fast. We’re older and older. I don’t know… everytime new year comes, I’m always think about my ages. 
To be honest, I’m not satisfied with my progress at 2008. Too much things did not happen as expected.
But, that’s life.
You just need to learn from your mistake to achieve success. We can say that success is a product of a bunch of mistakes.
Next year, I have to be a better person.
Ganbatteeeee !!!!!!!!
Last night, I couldn’t sleep…
I’m very anxious to find out about certain issues in my life and I couldn’t find the answer… I felt irritated by this condition, but it couldn’t be helped.
I took my time browsing through the web… searching information about metta meditation. Google gave me some results, and I was directed to a forum where people talk about Buddhism.
They had a quite complex conversation in there, and I was delighted because I found some new inspiration from it.
Every time we feel anxious. We’re worrying about our career, we’re worrying about our relationship, we’re worrying about our family, we’re worrying about our health, and we’re worrying about our family. We have too much things to worry about, and we tend to create disbelief in our mind system. We are starting to create boundaries around us and it will harm us in the future.
Actually, I’m very tired of this and I always think about it. This won’t get me anywhere… this is completely useless. I just need to feel relaxed. I just need to control myself. The most dangerous enemy comes from your inner, and when you find solution to tame your ego… you’ll become a better person.
So, the first thing I should do is to recognize the forms of the mind. I should not try to destroy it, rather to tame it. It’s sure not an easy job because it’s easier to kill than to cure.
Still long way to go… I hope I’ll get to the place where I always wanted to.
Good night… my friends. 
Recent news in Indonesian newspaper said that in a few months from now many people will lose their job. The cause is global crisis spreading from USA.
Indonesian product now lack of demand because USA now can’t afford to import as much as they did in the past. No sales, no money. No money, no jobs.
Haizzz… I hope the government will find some solutions for this problem.
The problem is this country is very depended on other country.
Yeah… it can’t be helped but in the future we should get lesson about this. We should consider about diversification and learn how to be an autonomous country.
How about you? Do you ever think about starting your own business instead of working for a company?
Recently, I read about online business article at this site : http://ebusiness.article89.com . I’m quite interested and I think I’ll try it.
I don’t hate my job but I think that I’m not going to work for company for too long.
My dream is to work with myself, be the boss for myself, and luckily I have an image about how I want to be.
I think I’ll start my way doing online business, blogging and another online money making opportunities.
To be honest, I’m really jealous with people who had earning from online activities or freelance job. It’s because I love freedom.
Recently, through google I found an interesting blog. The owner of this blog is a girl from the same city as mine. She is a freelance designer and blogger. You can check out her blog at http://www.wiehanne.com .
She is not working with any company instead working as a freelancer. And that’s really make me jealous. haha..
Can you imagine that you can go anywhere anytime you like. haizzz…
I think from now on, I have to work harder and harder. May my jealousy lead me to success.
Ganbatte !!!
The exchange rate is now 12.100 IDR per US Dollar.
It’s bad. Very bad… Now I can’t afford to buy a new motherboard and a new notebook. How pity I am.
It must be a good news for Indonesian people who have earning in US Dollar currency, but for me whose salary paid in rupiah… it’s ………… REALLY BADDDD !!!! ARRrrrGGGGhhhhhhh….
I don’t know.
Maybe I should working harder. Maybe it’s the sign that there is no time to enjoy myself. I have to work harder. The question is : Can I ??? T-T ufffff…… 
GANBATTE !!!
Yesterday, I had a good chat with a friend from overseas.
I don’t know, but I feel completely different when I had conversation with her. I feel like I can open my mind any further. I learnt a lot from her. She is really something.
I am a very complicated person, and I’m not used to tell other people about my personal problem. Because almost no one can understand my problem, and talking to them will likely end in vain.
But I feel completely different when I had conversation with her. I feel like she can feel what I feel, and she can understand what I try to explain to her. She is really an outstanding person I ever know.
I know that I’m not always agree with what she said to me, but I always can take another lesson from every words she said. It’s like a small stimulus which is triggering a bigger image inside my mind.
Although sometime I feel she can be better, but I chose not to say a thing about her, because maybe this is the best for her. Maybe she should find the best resolution for herself.
Thank you friend. Keep up your spirit and wish all the best for you.
I hate rain. My shoes become wet and I can’t return home on time.
And if the rain is big, then it’ll be extra work for me : I have to clean my house, because big rain usually cause flood in my house. And I swear… cleaning house after big rain is very tiring.
Hopefully this will not gonna happen again, but why the sky is still cloudy ? Is that a bad sign ?
Recently, I’m very sleepy. I just can keep up with my spirit. I feel lazy. I just want to sleep, and if I can I want to sleep forever without having to die. Can I ?
Hoi.. I love saturday. haha.
As usual, saturday is a fun time.
We plan to watch the newest Bond Movie : “Quantum of Solace” at Sun Plaza 21 Cineplex Theatre.
So, we went there buy tickets for the show. And guess what… we found a long queue. Ow… this is not fun anymore. It took us 2 hours before we can get the ticket.
I can’t believe that we must stand for 2 hours just for watching 2 hours duration of movie.
Furtunately, the movie itself is not too bad afterall. All I can say that this movie is better than previous one : “Casino Royale”.
If I have to give it a rate, than I would rate it 7.5 for this movie. Not too bad.
Have you watch this movie ?
