That’s why I think that we are slave of our own desire.

Even when we have control over anything. Even if we have money, power, love, everything… we’re still a slave of master of deception.

That’s no doubt about it. It’s like cancer. Cancer live within ourbody and ourbody accept it as a part of our own body, even though it make so much desctruction within our body.

I’m still struggling… I will never give up, even I have lost in every battle that I start.

I know this life is short, but I won’t to be in hurry. Because doing something in rush will just end up in vain.

There is something interesting about dream. Recently, I had a dream… I’m become daddy. I have a son, a baby. He is very cute.

I think that I remember every details of my baby’s face, but I don’t have any image about his mom. Haha… maybe I’m too focused on the baby.

I never been a dad before, and although it is just a dream, now I know how it feels to become father of a cute baby. Haha…

I feel something I couldn’t say it with words. It’s like a joy, but it’s completely different.

Actually, it’s weird enough, because I never dreamed about something like this before. Usually I dreamed about science fiction story, about how I couldn’t beat the monster with power, instead I use chocolate to tame the monster.

You may laugh to know that the monster can be tamed using chocolate, but still I take a good lesson from it. Monster is like our emotion, about the pain that we feel deep in our heart.

We are often trying to kill the pain, but sometimes we can’t win. Sometimes the pain becomes stronger after our effort to kill it.

We shouldn’t kill the pain, but we have to tame it like what I do when I tame the monster with chocolate. Haha…

See you later.